Love Island star said she felt suicidal after baby loss

LOVE Island star Malin Andersson has spoken about the heartbreak she went through following the death of her daughter.

Consy died aged just four and a half weeks in December 2018.

Speaking about the loss of her daughter, Malin, who appeared on the ITV show in 2016, told GB News: “I think it’s something that isn’t spoken about at all. It’s almost a taboo subject. The more we do talk about it, the more awareness we can raise, and people feel less alone.

“It was very hard, I was in a very dark place for quite a while. I’d wake up each day with this dark cloud hanging over me and I kind of had to ask myself: do I want to wake up like this every day for the rest of my life? Do I want to feel suicidal or do I want to experience these feelings or can I get better and can I work towards feeling partly like me again?

“I asked my mum what would my little girl want to see and I just had to find strength from somewhere and start the journey of healing and that is hard to do.

“I think in all of us there is some kind of strength somewhere.

In an interview during Breakfast with Isabel Webster and Stephen Dixon, to mark Baby Loss Awareness Week, she continued: “People feel quite awkward when speaking about something like this. Yet in my head, I’m like, ‘just talk about it’, it makes me feel like she (Consy) was here. When people kind of skirt around, it’s like they’re trying to forget that it happened and obviously that’s not the case.

“They just don’t know what to say, so I think speaking about it just normalises it and makes the mother or father know that their feelings are valid.”

Commenting on how she felt after becoming a mum to baby Xaya in January 2022, Malin, 29, added:
“I suffered quite severely with postnatal depression and with grief after losing Consy. People said: ‘Oh my God, you’re so lucky’, (this is) your rainbow baby, you should be happy, and you can start something new.

“But deep down, I was feeling this long kind of sorrow and I was almost feeling a little bit guilty that I was pregnant again.

“Grief is very complex and it’s something more people have to understand.